Thursday, October 4, 2012

Life Laughs When you Make Plans

“Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans…”


I don’t believe I’ve ever felt this saying before. That while I was planning my life away an entirely different life was presenting itself, right in front of me, while I was caught up in my own relationship drama.

I am still sad and still greiving how badly I hurt someone. However I have just finished the task of telling everyone who needed to know that it was over. The people around me have been so supportive and presented such amazing opportunities. I’m rekindeling friendships with some great friends I have seen much lately, there’s hope for future relationship success, and most things appear so happy and light.

This is the exact opposite of how I thought I would feel. I thought I would feel heavy and alone in the world. A little lost and taking too much time to bounce back and figure out what the heck I’m doing. I’m so thankful to be 30. Age, wisdom, life experience is finally serving its purpose.

So today, and only a week out of the worst, hardest conversation of my life here’s my glass half full…

I have discovered that 30 and single feels totally normal. It feels light and I don’t feel the rush and pressure of timelines.

My friends and family are AMAZING. As with my divorce I was surpised how quickly everyone rushed to support me no matter what I decided, and with very little explanation. This time, same thing, some how, even though most were shocked, their very first contact was to tell me they love me, are here for me, stand behind anything I decide, and lets meet up. Thank you all so much. I’m old enough that I don’t need the validation anymore, but it still feels nine million times better to recover on the wings of support.

There’s a friend who’s stepped forward…there may possibly be something really amazing with someone else.

I feel empowered. I can now say with 100% certainty I am no longer the woman who chose an abusive husband. My shit is together, I don’t settle, I don’t apologize for taking care of myself, and I feel deserving of the best life has to offer.

Happy Thursday all. …I think I’ve finally earned wearing my Hear my Heels bracelet again.